this day began pretty badly. i'd been awake about twenty minutes and already wanted to crawl back into bed never to see the sun again! okay, i'm being dramatic, but i really did want to sleep the day away. but alas i have many a thing to do and i will not wallow in my menstrually motivated melodrama. i'm going to be happy and enjoy the fact that as of 1:45 PM I am no longer behind in my reading (because 1:45 marks the last discussion we will have about a book i failed to complete teehee) and, in fact, i have the opportunity to get ahead in some work.
you know, i'm also going to make a better effort to savor this time i have to myself (all day, that is). i'm going to show you, blog, more attention. i'm going to show myself more attention as well. i don't necessarily deserve it, but i certainly need it right now.
i need to put forth more effort in recognizing that this situation i am in shouldn't be so stressful. i've been given a gift (quite literally, as i am attending school for free and living off of more free money) and i should have fun with it, just like i would any other gift i've been given (with the exception of that gift card for a free massage that i have yet to cash in; i haven't really enjoyed that gift quite yet).
plus, i can get free therapy at the university health services. can't beat that, man. perhaps i'll get a therapist that can finally rid me of my codependent ways so that i might become so content with solitude that i take to walden to write my philosophies in the absolute silence of nature. this is hilarious if you know that i hate that book. now you do know that i hate that book... hilarious, right?
is there some point in life where you become mature and realize what you truly want in life? i currently feel like i'm regressing. or maybe it's actually maturing? cryptic cryptic cryptic.
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